What not in Engineering...?

Engineering (shortly, engg), as to my definition, is simply a life within a life.... Its a different world that we step into, after those two years of strenuous and hectic struggle. We anonymously get a strange feather like feeling while entering into an engg college for the first time. People slowly come to know about this life and hope this lasts long.

Now, I have some brief facets of this very tender life of four years. Apart from studying (of course, its the biggest sin of this engg life), let me retrospect all the various aspects of my life here.

• My very first module is BUNKING, the king of all engg. activities. You never know how thrill it gives to bunk the college. No matter how good you study, how better you perform, ultimately, only bunking can give you the most and better way of happiness and satisfaction. Although it sounds against the normal culture, but there are certain incentives to it. Bunking a class can actually improve your performance and various other parameters as well. Here are 5 reasons on why should we break the rule and go out.
• Independence. If you bunk the class, you feel independent of yourself for sure which helps for your better life ahead.
• Improvement of performance. Teachers neither stop classes while you bunk nor repeat the class again. So, you think of your own to learn the concepts. So, you prove yourself to be an intelligent human but not a robot.
• Rapport with teachers. Bunking always leads to loss of attendance. So, go to your teacher with your oral talent. Flatter them with your wits out. Not only for attendance, you can even try to make them float for your marks in mids and internal exams. Result is the much better rapport with your teachers.
• Fun. The most obvious reason is fun. Increase your awareness by spending quality time with your friends.
• Peace. Yes, you get peace. Rather than sitting in such disastrous and desperate class, you'll find peace in bunking them.

• Linking up to the first is this second. PARTIES.... If you are a normal student, i'm sure you'll receive a minimum of 100 invitations in these 4years. Partying is the most common mode of enjoyment for engineers. Parties range from even the slightest thing to the most exciting moments. If a friend got a new cell, party. A new bike, party. A Girl, party. What not is the reason...? Every thing is a fuel to party....
• POCKET MONEY.... The most important thing every engg student must have. It doesn't matter how much you get but what matters is how often you get. If your wallet is high, its high enough to become the king of the day. Most importantly, when some of your friends melt your wallet, that is when you start annoying and later on, it become one of your most cherishing moments.
• LOVE LIFE is the most predominating experience of an engg life. You have sincerity in it, then you'll see its colourful future ahead and start working to flourish it. If you need a girl friend so as to show yourself as a status symbol, you'll have more and better options to find a pale-coloured one in a mob. But especially, chats, messages, late night calls, secret meetings are wonderful experiences for life.
• I simply cannot forget mentioning the online activities here. Chatting, Pics, Comments.. everything is spicy, sweet, memorable and touching. This multi-dimensional, multi-tasted feeling reach the peaks when you actually tease your friend online, that too in a social network where half a million people watch your back.
• Finally, every engg student end up at exams. Though they are pretty hard, we do enjoy them very much. Our preparation is similar to that of present-time cricket matches. As we see, there are more of One-Day Internationals and T20s, we do follow the same pattern. We start just a day prior to our exams (ODIs) and for mids, our schedule is T20 with a maximum of 3hour preparation. Though we study hard, last minute preparations are as usual. We simply call them PRE-PARESHAAN, rather than PREPARATION.... We love those tensions and so, we still practice the same through out our engg life....

We have happiness. We have sorrows. We have sweet. We have spice. We have confusions. We have crystal thoughts. We have everything in Engineering. What not...? We experience almost every tiniest bit of emotions and feelings here in this four-year life itself. Hope, earth turns back and get us to those good old starting days of engineering just to live it once again. As my heart felt, I'm now in the crippled old days of my engg life and I miss those young days of my life.... I'm gonna miss this life shortly.... :(

My Great Ramblings

Hello world....

After a much long time, i'm seen here in this place. There could be many reasons for me not turning around but one important reason to catch: MY MIND'S WORKING....

I've seen many incidents, picturized many instances, watched many pairs of eyes and talked to many holes of faces in these times. Thanks to all of them, I've got some sense in my mind to share with. So, let me now take the chair of a guru and start my GREAT RAMBLINGS....

The very thing I took as my subject is the Sense itself. Apart from the 5 physical senses (as you already learnt them in your school textbooks), a creature so-called human has to ignite and develop some special case senses. They are pretty much useful for sapiens who wish to lead the four-lettered L-word. Most commonly used example terms for senses are: Common Sense and Comedy Sense. Setting those C-senses aside for a while, I strongly do suggest some P-senses which always mask themselves in human minds.

-->  Sense of Point

-->  Sense of Pain

-->  Sense of Perception

-->  Sense of Perspective

-->  Sense of Priority

-->  Sense of Proportion

• Sense of Point is not a thing related to a "point" in Geometry but I try some geometry in addition to optics to unveil this. It simply depicts that a person must focus on the very point he/she zeroes in. Better, the diameter of that zero is quite minimal and optimal as a point so that the focus is sharp without aberration.
• Sense of Pain is an easy sense to explain but difficult to act. This is the most common sense to conquer by billions of people all around. You'll be gifted with pain only if you fail or you loose. What if you set the pain loose rather than carrying it on your back...? Gravitation force also applies here. You set it loose, it falls down and thus becomes your step to climb on. That is how you deal with it. That must be the sense one must conquer, the sense of pain.
• Sense of Perception is something to link up with the world. It requires observation and adaptation to this ever changing rock of earth. This is the basic sense for a Robot but where do these robots come from...? Whose's the main objective for these Robots...? Apparently, HUMAN again. So, it's about humans first to bud such a sense.
• Sense of Perspective comes to light when there is a comparison of tasks. Perspective discriminates good from the bad. Undoubtedly, there are cases of plus and minus in every atom of life. So, this sense helps in marking the positive which do some good to us.
• Sense of Priority also have comparison of tasks but in a different aspect. This sense signals the brain to identify the task that has more priority than the rest. Significantly, this has something to do more with our half-brained humans. Most of us cannot correctly prioritize the things that are in need to work on. That makes life tumble. For every work, there must be some priority set.
• Sense of Proportion is the continued link from the former two senses. Perspective teaches what's good and what's better, Priority shows which one's front and which's later whereas this Sense of proportion illustrates of how much should be the mixture of tasks with respect to a specified parameter. It simply guides the human on how to mix all the ingredients to make a good solution.

These senses, as I said are highly important and it is my order to all the homo-sapiens to follow these for their better and bright go-ahead.

PS:   The first two are from my personal insights, the third is an excerpt from our academic subject of Artificial Intelligence and the last three were gifted by Dr.Pattabhi Sitaramayya (freedom-fighter also known as the founder of Andhra Bank).

Hope you are highly enlightened and look out the page for more of my preachings.

-- Guru Swaroopananda ;)

ROADies....

Uphhhhh....!!!

Finally the give and takes which we initiated a long back in 3-1 came to a happy ending with the words of "OK to tour" from our HOD. Mentioning himself to be a traditionalist, his positive academic intentions gave a negative impact on the tour. What reflects in this no-one-compromising issue is that we need to follow certain principles without the tiniest aroma of singular feelings.

Retrospecting, it all started long back in 3-1 when all of us had the bud of going tour for an industrial visit (see how formal I'm). Without a day gap, we were in front of our head with a proposal letter. He, being the new HOD then, has no idea of how to react with such a goddamn proposal. Of course, its our big mistake to put forth such proposal with many flaws and without a procedure. So, same came the result. Proposal rested in peace.

Just by thinking about the tour and by some dream construction business, we entered 3-2. That small bud was still growing big, though our first attempt was a failure. So, we made another try. With all the necessary amenities and by following procedures, we again knocked the door of our HOD. But this time, mid exams came straight our way. Another setback.

"Mids were shot down, Labs were fired and Externals were done. No obstructions to stop us from going to tour this holidays...." Such of our intentions were washed by Mini projects. One and a half month of the most valuable days for an engineering student (we think so) were consumed by projects. Though I loved being involved in them, I had some better plans to implement in those days.

Amidst of project, we again poked our head but off the record this time. Don't know what he understood, our intentions or our logic, he said to have it in the first weeks of our 4-1 academic curriculum. Our hearts sang out of joy with DTS effects.

Finally, the day came when we became the 4th years. By the time our 3-2 mini projects got finished, July wished us. Again the loop reverted as we took another modified proposal. To our greatest frown, his mind also looped back. Nothing less than disgusting. Pleadings started in both ways, logically and dil logically. At last, our prayers gave result. We got approval for 4 official days to have our Industrial tour in addition to some site seeing around.

Thanks and credits, all belong to our hearts which sustained almost everything without losing the smallest part of control.

We hit the roads on 14th of July and return on 18th, officially.... ;)

Holidays

People like me have many ideas to spend holidays with fun. Some of them tingle your mind and some may sweep your heart. So, way to go to spend these holidays....

1.Vacation:
Very first idea that creeps into mind when heard about holidays. Hands involuntarily google for railway timetable. Eyes deliberately search for the hottest (oops, coldest, I must say) places. People love vacations a lot. If there is a sedan in my hand, I would love to go for a long drive to the coolest places near. Out of the imagination, there's no sedan that belongs to me right now and you cannot expect cool places around Vijayawada.

2.New things to learn:
If you can think out of the box, I can show you a 1000 productive works you can do (or atleast start learning to do) in holidays. Some of them are recreational and some may be of a purpose. I can advice you to learn music (if not yet learnt) or any instrument, gardening or horticulture, Learning about any Technical Device (Computers, Cellular Phones...) etc.,

3.Social Service:
We all better know that India is not at all clean (just talking about localities, not people). So, just make your hand to make it clean. Social Service paths you to clean the country in many ways. People work hard, work honest and work better. Cleanliness everywhere (now including humans as well).

4.Enjoying with friends:
Don't like any of the above ideas...? Here comes one which can be a better (of course, the best) option. Call or text your friends, gather yourself, hangout and chillax. Theme parks await your visit. This summer's fun is apparently directly proportional to the number of dudes and buddies around you. The more friends you have, the more party you enjoy.

But I tell you, people can be more different than me and you. They can involve you in activities which appeals to be life-at-stake position (in holidays, though).

One of such kind is a MINI-PROJECT Program that i'm working on in my College.... :(

HOLIday

This colourful day of mine started with a big morning bear yawn. Clock showed me 8:30am. Ohh...too early for me to wake up on a holiday morning (oops, this day is special). The bike honk of my friend rang my ears with a DTS effect. So, I got my ass up and managed to brush my teeth as fast as I can and finally slipped my body into archeologically preserved rags.

Phani and Rammi (Ramesh) were already done with the arrangements. All I had to get was a bucket full of H2O. Our celebrations started officially when a mug full of scarlet red water smiled on my face. The Blue tee I wore became colourful with many vibrant colours and shades.

Amidst of our celebrations, a small thought came flying to quiz my mind. Its a question for me to hit at. "When will a day come for you to celebrate with flying colours (other than Holi)...?" That quizzy thing irked me and immeadiately my heart simply smiled with a reply, "Soon...." I felt pleased with that pinch of confidence, my heart showed. Thank you Heart for never letting me down....

Back into the flow, all the colours of Red, Green, Blue, Yellow and Pink hugged me tightly with water.... What a love...!!!

"Enough of celebs here," said our voices to each other and apparently our bikes took off. Phani & Rammi took me to their friends' homes so that each friend of them got an at-home-celebration experience. Then, we headed to their uncle's sweet and silent home to make it a big mess. In the meantime, we got a more bigger fish. Traffic Police.... To our highest comedy, we were caught right in front of Traffic P.S for Triple Riding. Shaving costed us Rs.250/-. After all small and big bashes, we reached the spot. To their fortune, they were engaged in a ceremony at nearby home. Suddenly, an egg came swirling from no where and hit my unnoticed head. I turned around and saw Phani charging towards me with another white oval in hand. Before my brain responded, he caught me up. Pleading was the only thing I did and hitting was the same damn thing he did. The correct word I can describe myself, "YAAAKKK...."

By the end of our mess there, I came to know about the time i.e. 10:30am. We retreated and had a stopper's shop for quenching our thirst with an ice cold drink. I almost had a small-sized bath to clean my Big Zero. After that, a half-litred MAZAA served my tummy well. Rammi had his bottle of Thums-Up as Phani and me shared Mazaa. After 3-4 gulps each, our brains started working again. With mutual coordination between me and Rammi, Phani was felicitated with Thums-Up Abhishekam. Finally, we prepared a All-Mix-Mazaa Potion with all the colours we had. Our target was Koti. Again, to his luck, he left home to attend a marriage. So, what to do with that AMM potion...? It's again we three of us who spilled it on others' faces. With that, our Holi celebrations came to an end.



Highlights of the day:

> Traffic Police.
> Egg Scene.
> All-Mix-Mazaa.

and ultimately, my one and only THOUGHT....

Ek saal intazaar karo meri zindagi. Dekh lunga tujhe....

I will show you what happiness is, my LIFE.... I will show you....

School Bags

Time: 8:42am.
Place: Road.
My status: Going to college.
Scenario:
A cute tiny-looking kid was walking with his sister (elder one) to his school (with all the bag armoury, on). The walking style of this Indrasena Reddy was ferocious and fast than his sister. He was dragging his sister as if she made a crime and he himself was locking her up in a prison. Thought he was very much interested in going school. Better pray god to change his mind when he enters Engineering ;)

Suddenly, the pace he was maintaining slowed down with his mouth large open. I was seeing at him with an exclamation mark on my face, thinking for the reason that made this chota-don slow down. He simply uttered, "Akka.... Kukka...." ;)

With that rhyming phrase, the scene totally altered to 180 degrees. From then, his sister started dragging him through that hell-like street. I gave an ad to ORBIT WHITE and thought, "Indrasena Reddy ki kuda kukkante bhayam anukunta...."

Funny incident that recharged me with a ton of happiness right at the start of this pleasant day. It also reminded me those of my school days. I still remember the hang-outs that time. Hang-outs of bags over our shoulders.... Days to remember are valuable....

Dancing Mad

My basic definition of dance flows like "Expressing the feelings of oneself through an art form of body movements and face gestures." Dance, to me, is one of my ultimate things to do and experience before I die. The movements that outcome from this flesh, elate and elevate my mind. Easy recharge to my body.

The only thing that worries me about is some people who move their hands and legs with F=ma force but lack some biological and psychological sensations inside. No matter about the lyrics, they simply jump for the beat or the so-called music. Those mechanical machines always try to dance for the songs which are of feel-good type (nice joke).

These people try to teach me a new definition of dance. "Listen to the beat and make your body move to it". This is what dance is to them. I could see a bang if this same new definition is putforth to any real dancer. Pity for the people who think themselves as dancers and actually not.

You're Beautiful

Listening to this track of music made my mind float like a piece of white blank paper in a breeze. After all, that feeling activated freaky itching friend of mine (Brain) to work on some lyrics to that music. And, finally, this is how the mess came out.

Listen to the song, here.

The lyrics part flows like:

I got your heart.... in to....
Let me give my heart.... to you....

My Love is true.... Flying for you.... dear....
Let's make a way together.... to the other world near....
My joys are well sensed.... with your love essence....
My means to come to you.... is just in my dreams....

You're beautiful.... Delights me full.... dear....
You're beautiful.... my Love....
You're beautiful.... Ohh my Angel....
Will you come with me till ends...?
I can pave way for you with flowers....
Make your step with me...?

Your grace made me fall.... I can't get up at all....
To see your eyes and to ur smiles, I need to try hard as I can't turn myself right away from you....
I know your charms, harm me not, but the impulse that it has on my heart....

You're beautiful.... It gives me full.... pleasure....
You're beautiful.... my Love....
You're beautiful.... Ohh my Angel....
Fairy, come with me till the ends....
Let love take you to where it tends....

She caught up my eye.... As I walked her by....
She sprang my mind and I was gliding all over in the wind and sand....

You're beautiful.... Delights me well.... dear....
You're beautiful.... my Love....
You're beautiful.... Ohh my Angel....
You're my life, Honey....

I got your heart.... from you....
Let me give my love.... a new you....

My Love is true.... dear.... Flying for you.... ever....
Let us make a way together.... to the other world near....
My joys are well sensed.... with your love essence....
My means to come to you.... is just in my dreams....
Let my Silverlight come with a Bubbly night and makes me sleep for dreams forever with my Smiley Princess of Joy....

Let me give my heart.... to.... you....

Just by listening the music, you'll be safe alright but synchronizing it with my lyric work make things more complicated.

CUT-COPY-PASTE

This is a piece of work done by Myth in great olden days. During my antique-inbox-search, I dug out this Kohinoor. Humble narration of god's deeds to say. But, don't forget to see my freak down to it.

The God’s Tale

I want to see how best I can
Comprehend the lord’s almighty game plan
For, how would god, if there truly be one
Narrate to his angels, the story of man

“Once upon a time, some light years ago
I threw nine rings, into the universe below
I hoisted a planet onto each of these
And sprinkled some stars to sparkle and glow

But in one of them, to create life, I sent
My five elements, to enable his birth
And so was born, the man, I made
On the planet, he grew up to name, “The earth”

Now, all I did, to start my game
Was give him, to think, a mind of his own
As I wanted him to know, whatever he did
He will have to reap, what he had sown

Very soon, I saw him multiply
Into numbers, of which he had lost the count
But my eyes are sharper than he ever can know
And doings of none, will they ever discount

While some said, there exists a superpower
Glories of which, all time they sang
The rest put forth a theory that said
What started it all was “The Big Bang”

Behind this divide a motive did lay
What they wanted was neither peace nor love
But power in the name of man or god
To rule the earth and the heavens above

When the word failed, they drew their swords
To declare a war and swear their blood
And so they bred a reckless hate
An evil they should have nipped in the bud

But the war did end with borders drawn
Blood still dripping from their knives
For every chunk of land they claimed
They wiped away a million lives

This set the ground for greed to grow
And no sooner than it took the reigns
It robbed the man of his power to think
And bound him with the vicious chains

Since then he’d never slept with peace
Craving for more than he truly deserves
He dug the earth from pole to pole
Eating away into nature’s reserves

Brutality, hate, pain and greed
Were banished only for hell to claim
But the sight of what they’ve made of earth
Could do well to put the Satan to shame

Now they are short of all they need
Their great economies plummeting, alas
Would they now realize the gravity of greed?
We are yet to see in the time to pass

Now this is the last leg of the game
And I will have fun watching him
Walk the tightrope with the vessel of life
He himself had filled up to the brim

Now if he spills a single drop
I will end his life and his world as well
And take away the earth for my new game
For even in that, I need a hell”

Far in the sky and behind the clouds
If there truly is one who sees it all
How else do you think can he narrate?
The tale of the man’s rise and fall


--

Mythili Sankara.

MY God's Tale

I want to see how best I can,
understand the lord’s almighty game plan..
For, how would god, if there truly be one,
narrate to his angels, the story of man....

""Once upon a time, some light years ago,
I threw nine rings, into the universe below..
I hoisted a planet onto each of these,
and sprinkled some stars to sparkle and glow....

But in one of them, to create life, I've send,
my five elements, to enable his birth....
And so was born, the man I mend,
on the planet, he grew up to name, "The Earth"....

Now, all I did, to start my game,
was give him, to think, a mind of his own..
As I wanted him to know, whatever I name,
he has to reap, what he had sown....

Very soon, I saw him multiply,
into numbers, of which he had lost the count..
but my eyes are sharper than the man, i ply,
and doings of none, will they ever discount....

While some said about superpower in myriad,
glories of which, all time they sang..
The rest put forth a theory that said,
what started it all was "The Big Bang"....

Behind this divide, a motive did lay,
what they wanted was neither peace nor love..
But power in the name of man, they say,
to rule the earth and the heavens above....

When the word failed, they drew their swords,
to declare a war and swoosh their blood..
And so they brewed a reckless hate
an evil they should have nipped in the bud....

But the war did end with borders lined,
blood still dripping from their knives..
For every chunk of land they claimed,
they wiped away a million lives....

This set the ground for greed to grow,
and no sooner than it took the reigns..
It robbed the man of his power to know,
and bound him with the vicious chains....

Since then he’d never slept in peace,
craving for more than he truly deserves..
He dug the earth from place to place,
eating away the nature’s reserves....

Brutality, hate, pain and greed,
were banished only for hell to claim....
But the sight of what they’ve made of earth,
could do well to put the Satan to shame....

Now they are short of all they need,
their great economies plunking, alas..!!
Would they now realize the gravity of greed?
We are yet to see in the time to pass....

Now, this is the last turn of the game,
and I will have fun watching him..
Walk the tightrope with the vessel of life,
he himself had walked up to the brim....

Now if he spills a single drop,
I will end his life and his world as well..
And take away the earth for my new map,
for even which, I need a hell....""

Far behind the clouds, that taint,
If there truly is one who sees it all..
How else do you think can he narrate?
The tale of the man’s rise and fall....

--

Mythili Sankara,

Swaroop Annapragada.

India, the next to be DONE....

Note: Better not to think about the title here.

Did you ever listen to the most commonly used phrase by any Indian (during National Holidays, though)...? That reads like, "PROUD TO BE AN INDIAN." If I become one of the listeners of that, I immediately shoot out a question. "What is your contribution to make yourself proud as an Indian...?" Most of the time while posing, I received silence in return.

To the present conditions, I cannot defy defining India as:

INDIA, The only country with huge ethic bases in the world....
....Yes, with almost equal number of temples and bars.

INDIA, One of the fast developing countries in the world....
....Of course, with less indigenous principles.

INDIA, The largest democratic country in the world....
....With deeply rooted corruption, who cares.

INDIA, The biggest country of constitutionalism in the world....
....More than 75,00,00,00,00,000/- of black money belong ONLY to politicians.

INDIA, The most civilized country in the world....
....People who either laugh or criticize when someone talk about sex education (which is neither a crime nor a mistake) lives here.

When I pose a question, "Is this the country which I devote and care about...?", to myself, apparently, the answer is YES. Then why do I have some disturbance X in my mind...? It's about the people, here.

India, world's second largest workforce station, world's biggest think tank and one of the fastest developing nations is inert in progress. A boy of 5 can easily laugh by seeing the so-called "fast progress" in live.

One basic statement that everyone knew is "A country develops only if people in it develop." So, it's time to think about triggering the progress rather than celebrating of being an Indian.

Turn yourself towards the title now. This title have two meanings. DONE, in the first case, resembles a better take-off towards progress. When the coin is turned, India will ever ever be a PROGRESSING country till it's doom.

D for Difference

Many people try hard to be different(obviously I'm one among the array). But seriously, they lack a thing. What is it...? Think... Think... Yes, I got an answer. It's surprisingly THINK.... People try to be different but many never ever think of how. How can a seed turn into a fruit without flowering...? Only such people & god know how (Better not to try for a research project on this). So, I've tried to learn some ABC on being different. I may not be a master, but I can manage to guide as many persons as of my age (always less than a quarter of a ton).

Starting with my favourite set of highly recharging words, I can continue this stuff with a full swing.

LOVE, PASSION:
These set of words have a pair of worlds within. Each word has an intense depth of sense and meaning, for which I don't have another generation to explain in detail.
Love is simply an intense positive feeling about an object or a person. Passion is a similar kind of thing with something more, relatively. I define Passion as the next stratum of Love.Passion is the same intense feeling about a particular atom-packed stuff to which one becomes mad and crazy.

SELF RESPECT, EGO:
Respecting oneself as equal as respecting others is nothing but Self respect. The word "only", if added amidst of the previous sentence changes the meaning to Ego.

SENSE, KNOWLEDGE:
Many a time, I used to say, "Don't you have Knowledge Sense...?" But later on, my mind realized that it had combined 2 different variants and treated as an entity.
Knowledge is the thing which we acquire by learning. Sense is the 'homo' kind of a thing which we acquire by perception. Senses are like built-in devices where as knowledge is external.

COMMAND, CONTROL:
Both these words seems to reflect same meaning but an ocean of variation occupies the space. Commanding is not same as controlling and viceversa.
Command may not control always but control always command.

DIFFERENCE:
Difference is one of the must-understand words of the dictionary (no survey done on this. Just said on basis of personal intentions). People may laugh at you if you try to be different (not new even to the greatest, Sir Albert Einstein). Just laugh in counter as they are all seems to be the same. That is the point where I thought of becoming different from others.

My very problem on being different is also different. If I can accomplish a particular task, then I expose much of my confidence that makes people think that I'm over confident. It may also have a positive edge, but many people think the same and misunderstand. (I still make it as a habit. I'm Swaroop).

Waves of my Life

People call me Swaroop, leaving all that stuff of ANNAPRAGADA bla bla.... into the downstream of Krishna (to be more specific, a river). My family was said to be the direct descendants of some sacred sapiens who used to call themselves as some X people(please don't question about X). In my childhood days, when I fell asleep, I used to wander along with tons of some set of dreams which filled colours to my nights. From my tender age, the same dreams made me sit without any other single second of thought in the night(not even sleep). Many days, I wondered what that set of dreams could be and I started thinking about it. Finally, one night gave me the crystal answer to which I got satisfied to the peaks. It's FLYING. Yes.... In addition to my mind, I wish my body to fly high. Then, I started counting the prerequisites. What all I need were just three things. WINGS, PASSION and SUPPORT.

Before flying, one more thing stuck my mind. The thing of serving. Serving only to my family (but mind you, the family of my country is large). So, the choice I had was to become a SUPERMAN, who serves his people, flying. I cannot expect myself to be SUPERnatural or some other kind of related heck. "Better to be a COMMON MAN than a super man", I thought.

But, I can't make my mind go in the way, other than flying. That resulted me to step towards AIR FORCE. By the time, I completed my 7th standard, may mind was locked. "Yes, I'm gonna step into it and fly high", the only thought that stirred my mind, that time. "Who the hell are you to decide...?", screamed my fate. It already entered into the mind of a person whom I admire the most(default case and loops infinitely) and that eventually changed my course. I was directed for IIT foundation course in my 8th standard. THE VERY FIRST KNOWN WAVE OF MY LIFE.

Waves are so inspiring.... Not that they always fall and rise, but everytime they fall, they fight back to rise....

I was afraid that NO might be the case for me. I was weak to fight but weakness didn't stop me to regain my lost chest. Tried and tried hard to make myself comfortable in that path so as to make my family feel happy that I was still under their guidance and control. But this baby is a freak-minded young masculine creature who thinks and paves a different route for himself. When my authorities (as I call) came to know about me, offending, they halted pushing further. From then, I didn't have another IIT foundation class till yet. CELEBRATION OF MY FIRST WAVE RISE....

After completion of SSC, I approached authorities to putforth my dreams for the first time, officially(till then, they read my dreams unofficially). Requested them for appearing NDA in the intermediate stage.... Reply was same as expected.... No.... That added ONE MORE SETBACK WAVE.... This time I better knew what I was and gave a hard knock(not physically) that explained my scenario. "I can satisfy you, people", was the phrase that marqueed in my mind. The way I behaved(with over confidence by looking at my young blood) to convince them may be rude, but my intentions were of high sensitivity. That made them feel defended and finally I received a word stating that I can appear only after Intermediate. Any water is better in desert. So, agreed. WAVES RISE again....

By the time I got all the authoritative permissions, my II yr Intermediate course came to an end that left me with an only chance of appearing for NDA. August 17, 2008 was declared as my exam date. With all my overflowing mixed emotions, I got through the written exams. First ever burst of my real success and happiness. Just by reading the Interview call letter (which I received after many days), my mind crossed the holy Ganges and reached SSB, Allahabad. My body went there on 3rd April, 2009.

While my head was looking ahead to Allahabad in the Train, my cell bumped out of the moving snake to watch Madhya Pradesh. I missed it very much. By the grace of (then) Capt. K. Viswanadham, would-be husband of my cousin (also a would-be bro of mine), Mythili (my inspiration to write all this crap and to maintain this so-called blog), I somehow managed to stay at Army Guest House in Ahld. Cantonment till 5th morning. My first vsit and stay at a place like Cantonment. The very thing there at the guest house was a conference call with my bro, Capt. Vishy and Myth. The words of the Capt. still rings in my ears which reads like, "There are Army Jawans who attend for each guest house. Remember, they serve the country. They should not be used for self purpose though they are meant to look after the guests. Hope you understand and act accordingly." With my filthy habit of cracking a counter to every person, I did the same with him about Army to which I got a double-countered response in a casual way. That is what I call, a Tit for Tat.

The day of 5th April, 2009 came for which I was eagerly waiting. After all the formalities completed, I made a move to my allotted dorm. Just imagine my spirits in an area like that. The next day started with a start of our SSB Interview Testings. Written test on Reasoning was the first task to accomplish. I did it. "Yahoo...!!!" is the word that described my accomplishment. Next was the exciting picture perception testing. I was told to write a story about the shown pic. I wrote one. Till then, I set my rising spirits, loose.

Did you ever observe the rise of wave at the time of a cyclone or a Tsunami...? Though it attains a greater height, the use is nothing but a void.

Same was the case. All my raised spirits devastated my dreams like a cyclone. For the first time in life, 6th April, 2009 tasted me a failure without my nano part of involvement in a mistake. That too, in a group discussion which I'm better at. CYCLONIC WAVE OF MY LIFE.... CRY was the only option seen. But I didn't. Actually, I shouldn't. "You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have." Keeping that in mind, I modified CRY to TRY. My greatest setback in life was followed by a counter heart-steady attitude, thanks to my mind.

After retreating home, I joined Engineering so as to get a bachelors degree. Now, my plan is in execution. After my B.Tech., I can make a series of attempts to enter into IAF through CDS. The possible stops for my attempts will be: Either I get selected or my eligibility criterion becomes unsatisfiable. Neither of them happens so easily as I'll show the hell how tough a passionate guy will be.

All the above lines (paragraphs, to say) were framed just to justify a single line.

"IF YOU PLEASURE YOURSELF IN RAIN, THEN MEND YOUR MIND TO STAND UNDER SUN AS WELL."